It feels like it has been a while since I’ve really been able to take a look at the big picture. I never thought of the chance to take the 100,000 foot view into perspective as being a luxury, but when you’re way out in the tall grass moat of the time it sure feels that way. I know that almost everything is interconnected, but you usually can’t see those connecting nodes from ground level. The big picture is about doing the analysis and making sense of the inputs. Life on the ground is about reacting to those inputs, either through training, instinct, or pure random chance.

I think I’m self aware enough to know that what I’m really missing at the moment is the time to disengage from that reactive mode and do the thinking, and writing, and the reading that tends to keep me balanced. I need a few minutes of operational pause to marshal my forces, lay out the way ahead, and come at things fresh.

I don’t have the first idea of when that might happen, but knowing the remedy seems to be a good first step.